here’s my secret: i feel guilty for not crying when my grandmother died, even though i understood the gravity of the situation, guilty that i couldn’t feel truly sad for the loss of a woman who i had visited, once, at the age of five, too young to remember, and who had visited me, once, [...]
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death
Posted in thoughts, writings, tagged family, personal history on September 8, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
2012
Posted in thoughts, writings, tagged discrimination, queer, race on August 15, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
“the world will end in 2012,” they say. then why the fuck do we continue to wake up every morning, shower, drink coffee, why do we continue to set goals, make plans, continue to live? “the world will end in 2000,” but the world is always ending, a tree chopped down, a deer run over, [...]
white light/white heat
Posted in thoughts, writings on January 30, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
New York is white: white like smoke rising into the cloudy sky, like snowflakes melting into rain, then mixing with the soot of automobiles and soil and animal wastes, muddy water pooling at rusted drainpipes and gutters so that you have to leap to cross the street, or risk soaked feet. What does white mean? [...]
