here’s my secret: i feel guilty for not crying when my grandmother died, even though i understood the gravity of the situation, guilty that i couldn’t feel truly sad for the loss of a woman who i had visited, once, at the age of five, too young to remember, and who had visited me, once, [...]
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death
Posted in thoughts, writings, tagged family, personal history on September 8, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
2012
Posted in thoughts, writings, tagged discrimination, queer, race on August 15, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
“the world will end in 2012,” they say. then why the fuck do we continue to wake up every morning, shower, drink coffee, why do we continue to set goals, make plans, continue to live? “the world will end in 2000,” but the world is always ending, a tree chopped down, a deer run over, [...]
爸爸 (text)
Posted in artwork, poetry, tagged family, personal history on March 11, 2009 | 1 Comment »
FATHER Do you remember my first words? 爸爸, daddy, or so mom told me once. You were supposed to be there for us – me, mom, David. But instead you ran, left us behind… or did we leave you? 我的爸爸, my daddy. And do you remember when 奶奶 died? 你的妈妈 Don’t do this to me. [...]
untitled story: epilogue
Posted in prose, writings on February 17, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
when i look in the mirror i see her ghost, translucent, a halo of light around her temple. she looks like i remember her: the wrinkles around her mouth, around her eyes, which are pale, even though i know she had dark eyes in life. she is smiling, her thin lips pursed so that they [...]
untitled story: chapter 8
Posted in prose, writings on February 17, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Xing Xing ah, I never told you. Ni de ba ba, he always wanted a boy. Being a girl too hard, he say. Nothing out there for a girl, except trouble. I know he’s wrong, take a look at me! I come here from Bei Da because I know one day I want to have [...]
untitled story: chapter 7
Posted in prose, writings on February 17, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
“MARIE “Do you remember our first kiss? It was by that giant tree in your front lawn, the one you said your mom wanted to cut down because it was blocking her bedroom window but like how else would people know which house was yours? I mean you know how suburbia is man. Fucking cookie [...]
untitled story: chapter 6
Posted in prose, writings on February 17, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Dylan, listen. I’m going away. Yeah, no, I know, I told you I’m going to China for a month, but after that I’m moving to New York. I’m gonna go to school there and live with my dad for a while. What do you mean why? I mean, yeah, he hasn’t been the greatest father, [...]
untitled story: chapter 5
Posted in prose, writings on February 17, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Ai ya! Ni de ba ba hen ma fan! Nothing but trouble! How you think he can pay for you to go to China? He try to make me pay! You don’t think he has that kind of money, do you? No, of course he don’t! He don’t even have money for his own ticket, [...]
untitled story: chapter 4
Posted in prose, writings on February 17, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Nu er zi, how you been? When was last time I see you, girlie? Why you never come visit me in New York? Ai yi Linda want to meet you! I show her pictures of you as very little girl but I don’t know what you look like anymore! How old you now, ji sui? [...]
untitled story: chapter 3
Posted in prose, writings on February 17, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
“MARIE “Im so embarrassed that Im actually writing this but I have the biggest crush on you. I dont think youve ever noticed me in class but I hope you do I hope Im not like creeping you out or anything. I just want you to know even if you dont know who I am. [...]
